PB&J

For the past week I've been husbandless. Sean left last Saturday for awhile to go to a few rodeos. Jason, Sean's brother, has been helping me around the house and said he would sleep in our extra bedroom or on the couch if I got scared at night, which is really sweet of him. I'm taking two, two week classes for him to bring up his GPA so he was kind of guilted into being my slave. So far he's done my laundry, dishes, and some dusting! So far I've done about 10 quizzes and work sheets on Music and Sports Officiating (who knew that was a class?)

Yesterday Sean was up at Denver. He didn't do any good. He drew a bad steer that never left the chute, so he never had a chance at throwing the steer. I swear he has THE worst luck of anyone I've ever met! I used to be really lucky, but his unluckiness rubbed off onto me.

Last night he called and said they were leaving Denver and were trying to get to Amarillo by the morning because they had to get a saddle fitted for the horse they are riding and the saddle is in Amarillo. I almost laughed out loud and then started singing the George Strait song "Amarillo by morning" to Sean. After that, that song was stuck in my head all night. As I was bathing Birdie last night, singing that song over and over again in my head a few of the lyrics jumped out at me.. "I ain't rich, but Lord I'm free."

This may have been totally obvious to some people but I just realized that Sean is a "free spirit" of sorts. He doesn't like to be held in one place and he doesn't really like to be told what to do. He's a fly by the seat of your pants type of guy, he NEVER makes plans. He doesn't care about "things" and doesn't have to have a lot of possessions and is happy just being himself and rodeoing.

I on the other hand am exactly the opposite. I like structure. I have a planner that I keep daily and I HAVE to know what I'm doing ahead of time and I have to have plans. I like things, I like direction, and I like being told what to do, because then I don't have to make too many decisions. I want to have a 10 year plan and want to save for my future. Sean isn't worried about tomorrow.

So why did God bring us together? Two people who have nothing in common except hardheadedness. Why did he put us in this constant struggle of a marriage? I thought about it all night, I dwelt on it all morning, and then I realized... We're kind of like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich...wait stay with me here.

I give Sean stability, he gives me excitement.  It would be hard to have just a jelly sandwich because the jelly would be too "exciting" or messy and the sandwich would fall apart.  Just a peanut butter sandwich would be way to "stable" or sticky to eat...just like a life of full stability would be to boring and would be no kind of life to live at all and a life of constant excitement would get unstable and unsafe. So I guess in my crazy mind, that is why God threw us together in life..to balance each other out.. and I guess that makes me Peanut Butter! 

p.s.  Keep us in your prayers!!  Being apart this long is hard and Sean really needs to win some money!!  He's in Odessa next Wednesday and Ft. Worth after that!!